I guess I must be, seeing as though they agreed to help and ended up forgetting.

am I really that unimportant to be ignored when I ask for a favor

I knew it was going to happen, didn’t I?

I knew I’d end up looking like a boy so if I ended up going outside I wouldn’t have to care whether or not someone liked the look of me

I intentionally did it so I wouldn’t end up getting a boyfriend, didn’t I

I set this up for myself

my mind

just loves to fuck with me

yeah

I’m not perfect, I’ve made mistakes in those who I’ve gotten into a relationship with

I mean, I won’t sit here and lie and say that every relationship I’ve been in has been perfect

they had their flaws, and I’ve had mine

but I learned from that, like what I should’ve stopped doing, and what I shouldn’tve been looking for

like

why can’t I be the sense of reason in people’s heads?

I really wouldn’t mind spending forever with you

but with the way you easily gave up on me

it disheartens me and makes me realize the truth